Friends in my life - Part 1

Yeah, it's kinda a-spur-of-the-moment decision, although I have been thinking about doing this, but never before did I feel such a strong urge to make it happen.

So, here we go, my top 4 friends, starting with...

#2: Mer
The friendship we share is pretty up and down. It has not always been that smooth for you and me to understand each other and get to the point we can share the mutual insanity. and that is what I love about this whole thing, someone who dares to try your thing, someone who doen't try to judge you whatsoever, someone who is okay to talk about silly stuff with you. If I could make one wish, I would wish we didn't wait until you're almost gone to hook up.

#3: Chel
There are friends that we meet everyday, there are also friends that we spend super little time with but the string is still there to attach the friendship. With you, I would consider myself as someone nostalgic although the past is gone, and nothing is gonna be the same again after many of my inappropriate behaviours. I miss the closeness we used to have for a short while, I miss those online 'sex education' lessons, and also those once-a-year- getting together, etc. If I could turn back time, I would wish I were more mature so I wouldn't have ruined everything.

#4: Ung Uong
To me, it's interesting to have a friend that has the same surname, and you are the one, well, not exactly the same, but it still counts :) You are the first friend that I look up to during my teenage years, and I really appreciate that you were one among the very few friends who went through my crisis periods. With you, my belief that all kinds of real relationship shouldn't be affected by physical distance is strengthened. Recently my memory is getting worse that the picture about 5 years ago is starting to become vague in my mind, but the image of 2 girls riding bikes and discussing the manga that they were reading is still vivid.

~~~to be continued

Don't.

I do have my own limits.

Don't try to test it.

When you don't see me react, it does not mean I'm not bothered, I just don't feel it's necessary to react.

People may say I'm weak, but that doesn't matter. Who cares if you are strong or weak?

If you see me smile, would you like to join my happiness?

or would you console me if you see my tears rolling down?

It doesn't mean a thing. It doesn't.

Keep your head up and be yourself. Don't listen!

DT

Pan Yu

2007

2014

For a ten-year buddy-hood
Let's make another 10 years, ku :D

When we were young

Full of dreams and songs

Powerful trio

Always stay as bold.

Though black days came

Companions not the same

I'm glad we understand

And get through the dark lane.

Don't ever sing the goodbye song

Since friends are life-long

Believe it's never wrong

To stay strong together.

DT

OK? - No.

[Maybe one day you will understand why, everything you touch surely dies]

Right at this moment, I don't know where myself flowing. The past still clinging onto me, the present feels so vague,. My heart clenches again, when it misses its one beat.

It is claimed that most of our pain is self-chosen. True!

It has always been my case. I chose to be the one at the other end. I waited to be answered with a "Yes" and I accepted the "No" as well. Someone told me it would feel better when you know you are not the one making the other upset when you keep the sad notes to your own songs. And I chose to do exact the same thing.

[Same old empty feeling in your heart]

Feeling empty does not necessarily mean you are lonely. It's like fixing your stare to one blank page of your book. Keep a straight face to the world and day after day building up a concrete wall, even you youself need a ladder to climb over.

OK?

No.

Let it go.

[Conceal.
Don't feel.
Don't let them know]

It's just some random lines from the lyrics but I felt so much related to the song.

Well, it doesn't need to be secrets to be kept hidden, yet other perspectives of life as well.

Emotion, for instance.

There is a statement that "Life is like a play." and we are actors in our own lives.

Let's live, not act.

DT

Poem 2

A broken mirror:
Unbreakable love or trust
Now each goes its way.

DT

Us.

It has always been like that.

Us.

Although u and I are close to each other on the keyboard, its not so in reality.

I wonder if someday we'll know what's next.

If we ever know.

DT.